Reality and Fantasy

Normal version:
I'm a university student currently pursuing my degree. I'm interested in the thinking of human beings and the philosophy of life. Introversion is my signature characteristic, which explains my infrequency of going out of house and my tendency to find comfort in solitude. I wish to, within my capabilities, help people who are willing to accept my help for it makes me happy to see others happy.

Optimistic version:
I'm currently a student pursuing my degree that I think will bring me great opportunities in the future. I know the future is full of uncertainties, but there is no reason for me to be sad over something that hasn't even happened. Since I'm interested in this thing called "life", I always have the drive to explore deeper into it. I know life is hard, but there must be a chance for me to be successful somewhere in the future.

Pessimistic version:
Due to the fact that there is not even a single major in this world that matches my interest, I'm forced to choose a major closest to my interest. My university life is just that... busy. I'm being very busy now for a future that I don't even know what will happen. Things tend to go wrong at the "wrongest" time and they hardly go right at the right time. Such a pity. I don't know if there will be a place for me to stand in this world.

Sentimental version:
I was strolling along the beach, leaving a trail of delicate footprints behind while the tender wind caressed my cheeks. Taking a deep breath, I raised my face and landed my sight on the subtle clouds above me. The clouds seemed somewhat mysterious to me. We can see the clouds from afar, but we can no longer see them if we're in them. Just as if we can see the sea, but a fish in the sea may not realize it's living in the sea. Continuing my walk, my eyes then aimed at the wide horizon, where the sky and the earth appeared to meet. They appeared to meet, yet they were actually far apart. What a meaningful scene. I love how nature tells us stories about life. That is right. This is me, a university-aged student who likes to imagine and lives in the middle of reality and fantasy. The sweetness of fantasy is ever-so-heart-warming, but the cruel reality pains me to no end. Like you, I'm just another soul trapped in this harsh, harsh world.

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All that you read above are different ways to talk about oneself, just like what you would put in your "About Me" section of your blogs or any online community websites. The 4 versions are written very differently, but they all describe me, and they are all correct. These are the different sides of me, just like everyone else has their own sides (and some don't even realize what kind of "sides" they have).

If I were to put one of these 4 paragraphs in my "About Me", I would have been changing it all too often. I don't know, but my mood keeps changing lately. Lots of things are happening everywhere, and in one way or another they all seem to affect me somehow.

Once when I was waiting for someone in my car, I thought about something, and that made me realized that I'm a highly imaginative person. Well, I said "highly imaginative" doesn't mean I'm great. It just means I can imagine things pretty well, and I find imaginations comforting. Yes, this is a problem. This is a problem because I sensed that this is somewhat due to my fondness for fantasy. More and more people are having this problem in this modern yet cruel world today.

I remembered when I was playing a RPG (Role-Playing Game) on my computer, I thought of taking a break and went to the kitchen to drink some water. When I returned to my room and continued my game, I suddenly thought, "My character has been running all the way through the desert and has been killing lots of stuff, he should be tired already. But hey, heroes and heroines in games don't rest and don't eat anyway!" Sigh. Fantasy is such a nice world to live in, isn't it? If we could ever live in one that is.

Some time ago I saw it in the news that some young Japanese people wished to marry comic characters! Read [this] if you want to know more, or google it (since it's everywhere and it's not new). These otakus were so obsessed with fictional characters that they wanted to marry them. The person who initiated the campaign wrote, "I am no longer interested in three dimensions. I would even like to become a resident of the two-dimensional world." Another supporter said, "For a long time I have only been able to fall in love with two-dimensional people and currently I have someone I really love." That "someone" must be someone from manga and anime. Both of the quotes are taken from the page where the link provided above links to.

So, more and more people are trying to escape real-life difficulties and challenges and running away into fictional worlds and fantasy. The Japanese have such a wish to marry comic characters is in a way understandable, given their top-notch anime, manga, and games that virtually no other countries can beat. Even the market for lolicon materials are so big that you can see them almost everywhere in Japan. Out of so many countries on earth, Japan is among the most creative nations I've seen. But as much as they're creative and imaginative, the line between fantasy and reality is blurred day by day. Though I love their stuff, I don't know what would happen to me if I lived there.

We all have our own fantasies. Fantasies, in nature, are just the solidified mental images and thoughts resulting from our desires. So it all boils down to our never-ending desires. In other words, when desires take shape, fantasies result. This is a scary phenomenon for we could be trapped in them should we fail to wake up. I'm talking about fantasies that we long for but are not likely or are impossible to happen in the real world. I'm not talking about reasonable desires and fantasies that can be achieved through hard work, luck, or whatever that is required.

So...... Fantasy... hmph hmph...... Sigh. When compared to the harsh, inhumane, disgusting reality, fantasy is always so sweet. Sweet, and dangerous.