Girly?

"He is such a cute little boy."

Urgh... That statement always gives me the creeps!
My hair could stand and my skin could crawl. Eww......

Once, a lecturer said that to me. Well, he said that to other people but was referring to me. And it was already a year ago. Still, it has never stopped to sound disgusting. And note, I said "he"!! Not "she". (Arhh... my skin......)

I know I have a so-called "baby face". Or... I used to have that. (Maybe I still have that. I don't know.) And unlike other guys I'm not really tall (and not too short). And I'm not really fat (and not too thin). So, what kind of mental picture do you have in mind? Would that look... uh...... cute? (Please say no. Or I might feel something cold down my neck.)

I remember when I was in my first year in high school (meaning, 16 years old), there was this girl in the next class shouting, "Oh my GOD he's so cuuuuute!!" Um... The "he" was me. Everyone looked at her, and then looked at me. I was like... "What the heck?! What the hell just happened?" I thought like that but didn't say it out. Though, the girl was not my type. And I wasn't trying to find a girlfriend then because no one caught my attention.

And now, I'm in college already. For some reason, I can somehow mix with girls easier than other guys can. Don't ask me why. Go ask the girls.
But uh... of course, it's not totally without problems. No, the "problems" are not theirs, but mine. No one is at fault, but it's just the way things are. I can do nothing about it other than...... to wait.
Anyway, it's a known fact that colleges and universities have more girls than boys. So I, being a boy, am having a hard time finding more male friends. I do have some now, but it's not enough compared to female friends that I have. I would like to keep a balance if possible though.

Girls say that I'm more "girly" than other guys. No, that doesn't mean I'm acting "weird". (You get what I mean?) My character is completely male-like. And heck, I don't have GID (Gender Identity Disorder)!! I'm a boy, and I'm happy to be a boy. That's that. But why girls say I'm "girly" is beyond me.

A few days ago I was in my class when the whole class was discussing something. In the class, there were only two guys, the other guy and me. Others were all girls. That other guy said something (which I don't remember) to which the female lecturer replied, "You're the only guy here!" After a half-second of brief suspense, the whole class broke into laughter, mentioning my name and questioning the lecturer. It seemed I hadn't been "manly" enough to leave a "male" impression in that lecturer's head.

Anyway, things are just... like that. I don't know what to say.